Lean and mean

Back in high school, a few friends of mine used to jokingly call me Lil Miss Lean and Mean - - because well, I was a shorty (still am), I was so thin, I was a twig (and well, 'lean' is just one letter short to spelling my name) and I was sometimes not a very nice person.
I wasn't anything like the girls in the movie "Mean Girls". i didn't pull pranks or have my friends turn against another friend- - I was just very...blunt. I said whatever I wanted to say. And sometimes (most times) my bluntness would hurt a person's feelings. It was never my intention to hurt them - it's just, sometimes, I did not think before I spoke. Only later would I realize that I had hurt some ones feelings and even though I would justify my meanness by saying 'well, sheesh! it was the truth though. I only said what everyone was thinking', I would feel like shit that once again, my mouth got me in trouble.

I'm painting such an ugly picture of myself, huh?

But thankfully, that was HS and I'd like to think that I've left that immature attitude behind.

I don't know where I am going with this....

But you see, lately I've been a whiny, complaining bitch. And I know I've said a few things that may have hurt some people. The hubs, poor guy, has mostly been the recipient of my verbal attacks. He's taken it in good stride and even told me his theory of my moodiness. I think he may be on to something, but in the mean time, I apologize to those of you that I may have hurt. Seems like I've once again reverted to not thinking before opening my mouth.

I'm a dumb ass and I'm sorry.